3-29-09

Thanks a lot Michelle for scarin the crap out of me! Just kidding. I know it looks gross. That is why I posted it. Thought it would make for good viewing. Did I get a gag reflex or a little bit of vomit from anyone? I am not allowed to put anything on it for the itching. I have an appointment on the 9th for him to look at it again. I think everything is fine because it does not smell and it is not hot. I was told to smell the wound and if it stinks then it is infected. Sounds gross and is gross but I did it and there is no stench. I was also told that if the wound radiates heat then it could be infected. Does not do that either. It looks disgusting and has yellow puss oozing and crusting but apparantly that is not on the list of things to look for when deciding if your incision is infected.

The sexy hot beast amidst the words of this mad blog is me. Are those shorts hot or what? Not much difference yet but I want to document everything for myself so I do not forget my fat girl heritage. Some aspects of my culture include but are not limited to: fried cheeseticks, stretchy pants, hot fudge sundaes, giant underwear, Lane Bryant, deep fried twinkies, and swimsuits with skirts.

3-26-09

Gross!I am feeling a lot better lately. Getting pretty close to back to normal. I can get up and down and do pretty much everything like I did before. I remember two weeks ago I could not even get up from a laying down position in the morning by myself. My only worry is how seperated my incision is at the top. The right picture shows the top portion. The incision is stretched apart right there and there is a yellow crust forming. Pure grossness. The bottom portion is healing nicely I think. The only part that hurts is the top part where it is pulling apart. The whole thing pretty much itches like a bitch. I wish at times that I could take a hair brush and run it up and down the length of this valley running down my gigantic belly. To the left of the incision you can see a vertical red mark. That is where I itched it so hard it bled. I was bleeding through my shirt. I itch it in the middle of the night and I don't even know until I wake up in the morning.

The incision comes in handy for one thing and one thing only. Sympathy. I lift up my shirt and flash that incision and suddenly Sophia is helping me with anything and everything. "Auntie, do you need a bottle of water? Auntie, can I get you anything? Do you need help with anything?" It is absolutley fantastic.

Mommy

I love my mom. Seriously. I know that everyone loves their mom but I really love my mom. Seriously, I think I was super lucky when I got assigned to my mom. I actually like her as a person. She took time off work when I had my surgery to travel here to Oklahoma and help me. She waited for me to have the surgery, then she waited for me to wake up for the surgery. That took an entire day. She swabbed my mouth with water sponges. She helped me walk. She helped me go to the bathroom. She showered me. She dressed me. She removed staples from my incision. She was pretty much amazing. I 100% thought I was going to die when she had to go home.

I actually like talking to her too. It is not a chore to call my mom. I feel bad sometimes because I talk her ear off for an hour and a half. We talk at least twice a week. Whenever something funny happens I want to call her and tell her about it. If I see something that I know she would like or something she would want to see, I take a picture and send it to her. Like a little kid, I want to share everything with her at the end of every day.

My mom gives selflessly and loves wholeheartedly. I am the luckiest person in the world when it comes to mothers. I could not have a better one. I love her to the moon and back.

3-21-09

The doctor told me that it would be best to let the incision breathe every once in a while. He said that when I was resting or relaxing I could take the binder off and lift my shirt. I was laying on the couch today and crocheting so I let it all hang out. I took a pic while I was laying there. It severely grossed Nikkik out. I think she have gone into a state of shock and nearly passed out as I heard groaning and gag noises coming from her direction. It seems to be healing but it is coming apart in certain areas and that scares me. There are also some areas that I just refer to a "grody". Hopefully my next appointment reveals the same information as the previous and that is that I do not have a gangreenous infection billowing by mountains of puss out of my abdominal area.

3-20-09

I went in to work today to visit with everyone and see about going back on Monday. I have decided to go back to work but more than likely part time. I will work 7 am to about 11 am. I am so nervous about going back to work. During the first part of my time off it felt like it would never end and going back to work seemed so far away. Now it is looming over me and I am worried. I know I have to go back eventually. I'm feelin super sore today but I know it is probably all in my head because I know that I have to go back to work soon.

I went grocery shopping today and I looked at the labels for the first time ever. Do you know how many grams of sugar there are in tomato soup?!?! I bought shrimp, fruits, veggies, special K bars, soup, and protien cereal. Weirdest shopping trip I have ever been on. New for me to come home with food that does not need to be prepared with a deep fryer.

I am also having an issue with my protien drinkage. I have a powder that has 23 grams of protien per serving. I have to drink three of those shakes per day to get my full amount of protien. I am now apparantly lactose intolerant and milk tears me up. The powder is chocolate so mixed with water it causes some dry heavage issues. Now, there is a pre mixed juice type drink that I can use that has 40 grams of protien in it. That is two thirds of my daily protien. The issue is that the drink costs $2.59. My thought is this. I used to pay 5 dollars a pack for cigarettes and I smoked a pack a day. Now I will only be paying $2.59 a day. I'm thinkin it would not be ridiculous to buy 15 of those juices a payday. It would cost less than cigarettes did.

Well, my next appointment is April 9th. Hopefully I am still blood clot free and not dying of gang green. :)