Teenville!!

Okay, so I hit "teenville" this weekend. I went shopping with a friend and just for kicks I tried on a size 18 bermuda shorts. They fit!! I have not worn a size 18 pants since my senior year in high school. That was the goal that I could not wait for. To reach teenville with my bottoms. They don't even cut off my circulation! Oh and also in this picture, would be the regular sized shirt from Old Navy. No women's or plus size shirts for me. My arms look kinda nasty with the flapping skin like a tree squirrel sailing from tree to tree but I don't really care!

I cannot weigh myself again until my next doctor's appointment which is not until July 8th. I used the crappy scale in the bathroom and it says 235 but I'm not too sure I beleive it. I feel bad as there is not much else interesting to report. I eat regular food now but I can only eat small amounts. I usually just don't eat and have to remind myself to eat. I had the smallest most minute peice of chicken enchilada pie today and it was the most delectible thing I have tasted in a long time. Three bites and I was full.

My next goal is titled, "One-ville". That would consist of weighing an amount in the 100's. The day I weigh 199 I am gonna do a little jig and will most likely not be able to contain my excitement. I will be calling and or texting all of you!

LEVIS!!

It's been a while since my last post so there are a couple things to mention. First of all, I had my most recent doctor's appointment last Tuesday and I am down to 266 which is a total loss of 44 pounds. I was so excited that I stopped by the store to purchase myself a littlle somethin somethin as a celebratory thing. I started out at a size 26 and was able purchase bottoms in a 20 and tops in a 14/16. I am so excited! One more size down and I will be in teenville! I have not been in teenville since I was a senior in high school. So, one of the things I purchased was a pair of jeans. All of my jeans were literally falling off so I knew I needed to purchase a new pair especially when a friend from work said something. Apparantly my underwear show a lot because my jeans are sagging "innapropriatley low". Whatever. So I purchased a pair of Levi's. I have not worn regular Levi's in like forever. They are not techinally fat lady jeans. They are not Venezia from Lane Bryant which is the only kind of denim I have worn in the last 9 years. I got a shirt that is a 1x. I used to have to pick out the 3x and then hope that it would fit.

Look at the bootie in these jeans.

I am so happy. I am excited. I can't wait for all of it to come off. Even now, where I am at right now I can feel a difference. Little things that have to do with stuff other than how I look. I went to a friends recital last night at the local college here. The room was filled with those "mini" college desks. The ones that Jackie knows I hate. Half my ass fits in it while the other half awkwardly bulges over on either side of the desk. I grasp the little 10 X12 inch peice of wood they have placed for me to write on. I don't use it to write on; instead I use it to grasp onto for dear life so I don't go sprawling onto the floor. Oh, I hated those desks in college. Anywho, went to the recital and walked into the room and saw those desks. Started to get a little nervous. Teeny tiny beads of sweat. Then, I sat down. Then, I CROSSED MY LEGS!! I crossed my legs in one of the college, barbie, mini desks. It was comfortable. It was easy to sit in and I did not feel like my ass was going to fall off after sitting in it for ten minutes.

It is the little things like that. Those are the things I am enjoying the most. The way that I fit in my car now without the steering wheel hitting my stomach. I can cross my legs now. I can walk 3 miles a night on the treadmill without going into heart failure. I can walk into a room and be confident. Somewhere in the middle of all of this I realized that I am hot. One sexy bitch. It is not impossible for me to find someone. I will be happy someday. I am pretty. This is the best thing that has ever happened to me.